DEPTH and PERSISTENCE

these 2 words had been troubling me in the past 2 days... making me think a lot... there have been many questions coming up and so my mental unrest...

dont i have true friends?
dont i have persistent friends?
do i move on from friends to friends as time passes by?
dont i have strong bonds with my friends?

when i think back, i have come across many people, who have been very good friends of mine... but most of the times i got to see people who leave me and move ahead with life.... now is that my mistake??? i am not sure, confused... i have been friends with people, who made friendship with me to reach other person, kinda used me like a ladder... seen many friends who got carried away by materialistic gifts and found the other person to be better to me... seen many friends who have moved on with life, when they got into a relationship... i have been in many such relationships...

in all my relationships i have done my part, infact more... now the questions that come up are - is there a defect in me??? do those people deserve the kind of importance i gave???

so these things got me thinking!!! but i sure did come up with some answers though, but is that good or bad is what i still have to figure out...

KID- is what many friends call me... they way i move about, the way i think make people around me feel that i am a kid... i make friends easily and i think that everyone is good, trusting people quickly, giving them importance, trying to make them happy, making them feel good... etc etc etc... but do they deserve? will they stay? i never bothered about them... i always have been the man of the moment, living today, not bothering more about tomorrow...

but time has come now to give some thought before giving in... trying to know people before and categorizing them as mere acquaintances or people whom i should treasure... tough one but we have to learn and grow and not be stagnant... we cant be hurt again and again...
lifes not easy, have to fight our way out in this big bad world...
"nothing in this world thats worth having,
comes easy!!!"

DEPTH and PERSISTENCE... coming to the end of contemplation, with still few questions unanswered, i can still say that i have great friends around me... they had been with me in all the times i came through... they had been persistent and the degree of friendship we share is beyond any explanation and they are the best... i can confidently say one thing, when it comes to their friends i am the no 1 in their list, infact their BEST FRIEND!!!

i know, my whole perspective on this depth and persistence things sound contradictory, but thats life... some come in and some go out... so will stay and they will stay forever... each episode is a learning experience... we have to learn form them... and the wisest man is the one who learns from his mistakes...